Your Daily Dose of Joy

Hey Anon, thanks for the note.

The short answer is, “yes! thanks for asking, everything is wonderful. Busy, but wonderful.”

The longer answer goes a little something like this:

I’ve been busy. Really busy. I was traveling for work weekly, sometimes twice a week, and when I was at my desk I didn’t have the time to return emails to friends, let alone try and think of something pithy for you all. And then my grams got sicker and things with GC got sweeter and on and on.

And then there is this point where I realized that in the business of being busy, I started to care a bit less about getting on the radar or getting likes or anything else that you always say doesn’t matter to you but secretly does. And as I started pulling away from the concept of Internet popularity I wanted to reevaluate what tumblr means to me. This community that’s brought so much to me (support, friends, laughs, incredible memories) and I didn’t want to lose it. But in the same way, I was caring too much about stupid Internet things, getting too hurt over comments and finding it hard to enjoy the good and not be too effected by the bad. And I didn’t want to have a dramatic moment where I QUIT THE INTERNET because, hello, but how do you have space without dramatically quitting? I didn’t know the answer.

So I took some space. To be busy. To rethink.

I don’t know where I netted out, honestly. I’m an emotional and sensitive person so it’s hard for me to separate. But I love you guys! And I want to keep making friends who will talk about books and The Vampire Diaries and Texas Forever and WINE and Beyonce. So here I am. Not quitting and not fully in. 

That was much longer than you wanted it to be, right? It also took me about a month to write. Because I’m a crazy, etc.